You may know what is autism based on articles from the media or someone you know; but I will tell you here a more profound analysis of what is autism, basing it on my own life experience as someone with autism. Perhaps you, visitor, also is someone with autism; it took me a while to discover myself which I had the condition.
Autism is a condition which usually can be identified by a set of specific traits, but any generalization is false and not always that is true. There are many degrees, from lighter (my case) cases where it is still preserved some independence and traits which are considered "normal", to more severe cases where the person cannot live by itself neither have any social relationships. Having a condition does not relate to character, we can have a kind autistic person and an evil one, and even among people with autism we have sometimes friction. Some of our traits are:
- Sensitivity to sounds, light and smells.
- Difficulties in the body language, sometimes the physical body seems like a clothing which is not part of us.
- We simply seem "weird", outside of the "normality" cherished by the so called "normal" people.
- Usually ranquil, calm.
- We are basically "sponges" of the surrounding environment energy, absorbing and retransmiting joy or sorrow easily.
- We like calm musics, such as classical music, lounge or new age.
- We perceive things which no one else perceives. We are detail-oriented, with a sharp perception.
- We usually are caught daydreaming, having a stronger presence in the mental plane than in the physical one.
- We have a lot of ideas, all the time, and not always we materialize them fully in real life or even start them.
- We like philosophy and similar subjects.
- We have affinity with painting, music and/or computing. We "feel" them.
- We have a quite lively long duration memory, which sometimes work against us by means of reviving past traumas many times before they start to fade. We have some trouble leaving the past in the past.
- We have an above average intelligence concerning many fields, except perhaps regarding the physical intelligence required for things such as sports.
- Our sense of logic is sharp, it is quite the similar to the vulcans from the star trek science-fiction series.
- We are very sensitive concerning emotions, we feel happiness in great quantity but we also get traumatized in a greater intensity when something bad happens.
- What we feel hardly externalizes, and that works both in our favor and against by making it difficult for nasty people to perceive a moment of weakness but at the same not allowing helpful people to notice moments of sorrow to help us. Also, usually we do not smile because we see no logic on that and cannot really cry despite the sadness we feel, other people think we are always neutral or lightly well.
- We are an unstable kind of empath, being very sensitive to the suffering of other living being but at the same time being fully insensitive to some other things.
- We have a certain childish behavior, naiveness.
- We are quite direct, sincere.
- We avoid exposing what we think intentionally.
- Contradictorily we worry too much with what others think about.
- We have a lot of difficulties when sociabilizing. We hate big groups of people and chatting with people who we still not now very well.
- We do rather have a few quality friendships than quantity, only showing our real qualities and issues when we know a person for a long time and judge such a person as worthy. We want to receive in equal measure all the time we used with other person.
- We like to show affection and care, but in a way which people are not used to.
- We have repetitive behavior be it in our body language or thoughts.
- We are always in activity, we hate to remain still. It can be considered having some degree of hyperctivity. That is useful for working, but troublesome for the personal life.
- We usually have an unique, formal way of talking, writing and dressing.
- We have a greater intolerance to what we do not like compared to a "normal" person. A stubborness which sometimes is useful, sometimes an issue.
- We like things to flow in an ordered fashion, we do not work well with what is unpredictable, surprises.
- We usually also develop chronic migraines due to the frequent mind exhaustion.
- We have the power of the hyperfocus: We can concentrate absolutely in something, forgetting to eat, drink and sleep for days. Usually that lead to works of high quality done quickly when we work, and a quick learning when studying. It also can damage our health and make us distracted.
- We are perfectionist.
- We have a different way of understanding good and evil.
- We have trouble sleeping and relaxing.
- We feed and drink in a very restrictive manner, without much change.
- We have an affinity with cold colors such as blue and violet.
- We value much more introspection than extroversion. We like to be alone most of time to heal our minds, to have a place just for ourselves, our sanctuary.
- We sometimes have a great resistance to physical and mental pain, sometimes less.
- For those who believe in that, we usually have quite vivid dreams containing "mystical experiences" such as remote view, premonition of what is yet to come and/or regression to past lives. Our dreams usually are so realistic to the point of having a huge positive or negative influence over our awaken time.
It may sound funny, but not all autistical person know the symbol above. I did not. There are other symbols as well. According to whay I could grasp, those puzzle pieces are related to our methodical and logical way, while the different colors and the joined pieces show the diversity of personalities and traits which each person with autism have. When we talk about "condition" we usually think only in "limitations", like for example when someone is physically handicapped; but autism is one of those conditions in which you lose something considered "normal" but you gain in exchange exceptional gifts. That remembers a bit the concept of transhumanism and the concept of the mutants from science fiction to a point. If everyone had autism and few were "normal", society would simply work in a different way, more fit for us and less fit for "normal" people. It just is which this society puts a lot of praise in being "extroverted" and as such consider being "introverted" a flaw. Fully thing how many advances in many areas such as technology and psychology were made by the introverted people.
We have contradictory traits which causes irritation even to us, like being too sensitive to the suffering of others and at the same time being completely insensitive to some other things. Our sensibilities to external stimuli make it easy for us to overload, and that causes problems such as constant physical and mental pain. It is not unusual for us to feel melancholic, sad and irritated until we learn how to better manage such stimuli from the present or the past. Other people show understand which any person under those circumstances will be "weird".
We are target of bullying be it due to envy because of our qualities or aversion to what they judge as different and "wrong", being it which everyone have their flaws. That amplify our flaws and nullify our qualities, and that is exactly what some of them want. A person with autism which suffered much for too long have to risk to become an incredibly evil person, with its flaws amplified to the maximum and super-human abilities used in selfish ways. In the same way, a person with autism which grew in a peaceful environment will show its best and have its flaws polished. However, let us think about this, would it not apply to any living being? There are exceptions, but normally a person or animal gives back to the world what it received from it while growing.
Did you know which in Brazil you can include in your identification card the symbol of autism? In case you already have an identification card, you can just ask for an updated replacement. You will get priority customer service as it is psychologically painful for us to stay still for a long time surrounded by a lot of people, and you will not be harassed by for example the police because your are too "strange" for a normal "person". They will not expect from you things which you cannot accomplish. Below is an example identity card modified to not include personal information (obviously).
To acquire it, you need to go to a psychologist, psychiatrist or neurologist to obtain an attestation saying which you have autism, its technical name (autism specter disorder or the like) and a CID, which is an official medical classification number. It may not come written somewhere "autism", only people with specific conditions may receive a "person with impairment" written in its identity card. The medical appointments usually take months, and private professionals normally are better than those from heath care plans. An important thing to say is: Be careful with the chosen professional, because as you can see by this site ratings > medics area and the article "people you must avoid" there are many medics which although have a diploma of "mind professionals" will have no empathy for you, not helping in anything or even making your situation worse. If you feel which the medic is not good, do not continue the appointments and search for a better one; as it will be much more painful when you see the waste of time in the future when the situation become unbearable for both sides. You having a notion of what you have or do not have by means of self-knowledge, knowing what you like or do not like, this is not arrogance but loving yourself and a gesture of intelligence. Some of those "professionals" sometimes actually are mentally unstable (ironic), and you do not need more unbalance in your life. Having to deal with the downsides or having autism daily, that is more than enough.
Last Updated: 2022/02/22